what is this i'm feeling?
it's not new in my life.
i'm getting used, and numb
by disappointments that prevailed.

envious of people who are mere friends.
they observe, they remember,
the likes and dislikes of that person.
and you, my dear, is it that hard?

do you see the pain that lies in my eyes?
do you see the smile i wear is but a disguise?
do you see the flame dying in my heart?
do you not see the differences pulling us apart?

lying flat upon my back,
face up to the sky.
counting all the stars,
for all the times i cried.

every tear sends waves of unseen feelings
through the hidden surface of our lives.
they roll and fall until all love is gone,
all life is lived, and each feeling explored..