i have a story to share with everyone. it's titled "Snowy and Him".
snowy was just a plain jane when she met him. snowy was attached too. her relationship wasn't going all well for her and he happened to be the one who was online. she messenged him and ask if he was free to listen to her story and help her with it. he was rather friendly and helped her with it. but not long after, snowy's relationship fell. it didn't really hit her that hard as she already predicted the ending since the start of it. he asked snowy out and comforted her. taught her how to play pool better. he would always sent her home after that. she became used to his gentleness and kindness. that look in his eyes would melt her heart and heal her wounds. she fell in love. she decided to go after him and make known of her feelings although she knows clearly that he didn't like her then. somehow, he responded to her confessions and they got together.
unfortunately, he was enlisted and not long after their relationship didn't work. for snowy felt that she was taken for granted and he wasn't honest with her at all despite the communications. she left him. he didn't contact her anymore since the breakup. she thought to herself, "why is he so mean? can't we even be friends? or perhaps he didn't love me to begin with.." she thought she had gotten over him after a few months. but when she asked about news from her friend, the past came flooding her. she asked herself why did she left him.. since he doesn't takes the initiatives, she went back to find him. although she knows for the period of time that she was away, people finger-point at her and said bad things about her. but she ignored all that and got back together with him.
however, she didn't know that he actually was attached. until the girl came to confront snowy. she was angry and sad. she's angry because he lied to her and didn't inform her about it. she's sad because he told her he only love her and was still waiting for her to come back to his life. snowy confronted him and she saw the tears of remorsefulness and regrets. she relented and decided to give themselves a second chance. because of him, she gave up the chance of being with someone who is similar to her and knows what she wants to say or do even before telling that person. because of him, that someone left her and distanted himself away from her. for that someone feels that he would be able to protect her and give her happiness. but perhaps both of them made the wrong decision..
it turns out to be pretty well initially for both snowy and him. she tried to put the past behind and not harp on it further. but she just couldn't do it. it's too much of a setback for her actually. but he didn't understand how she felt and why cant she put the past behind. they talked alot about the past, the present and the future. for once, she felt that perhaps he's really the one for her. the one that she would walked the later half of her life with. but her friends told her that he's not worth her love at all since he sort of betrayed her. she insisted that her choice would be correct and she would be blessed with happiness being with him. after 3 months, it all became a nightmare. tears started to rain on snowy's heart. no matter how much communications they had, he didn't seem to understand how she felt and why was she reacting this way, although he claims to understand and know what was it like.
couple of months passed by and it's always the same kind of disappointments followed by the same kind of words that he would said to her. they were kind of like promises to snowy. as he said that "this would never happen again. i'm sorry". but it always happened time and again. she's numb. and their quarrels and arguements were getting more and more frequent till the point of almost everyday there would be something that would upset snowy. the worst thing was that he had to leave her alone for some time. she was so upset about it and really missed him alot despite all the hurtful stuffs and disappointments that he had left them with her. she thought it would be a cooldown period for both of them and wouldn't have arguements at all. but she was wrong. the quarrels just continued on.
she started thinking to herself.. "why is it that whatever i say or do, he never understands or get it into his head?! who am i to him actually? am i just a criminal who will be trialed everyday, a babysitter who will have to coax him, or a pet who will loved him and do whatever he says? i'm tired and drained.. it's hard to maintain this. perhaps it's time i should let go."
he called snowy up and they had quite a heated arguement. she decided to give him one last chance and if this chance didn't work out, it would be over for both of them. since he claims to understand how she felt and why did she react that way now. he's still hopeful, but she's already given up on everything between them. she couldn't see anything in front of them now. there's no more future, nor dreams that they had weaved together. looking back at the past.. his blog entries. they were all filled with ^_^ but after they were together again she didn't get to see his smiles anymore. she thought perhaps he would update the blog once again. but he didn't. maybe he didn't want to pen down things that are unpleasant. fallen hopes are hurtful and broken promises are piercing. people said that you would take 3 times the time that you were together to forget that person. so if this fails, it's gonna take snowy around 2 years to put everything about him behind?
she's so contradicting. she thought of all the possible consequences of the breakup and she wasn't so determined after all her thoughts processed. she didn't want to cause anyone to be involved. the breakup would only be the problems between the both of them. there's no one else that was involved. but she feels that there's nothing good that would come out of this relationship anymore. she's torned apart. nevertheless the memories were sweet, but there were more sadness in it. it's something like 80% sadness and 20% happiness. perhaps she should just let go and not hold on to it anymore. it would only be torturing to both of them and their friends who were pained to see them like this.
upon looking back, they would only have been friends if not for one person who meddled with their affairs. perhaps what snowy's friends said were true about him. "he betrayed you and got together with someone else due to loneliness and didn't bother to keep in contact with you after the breakup. why do you still choose to be with him again? what is so good about him that you see? are you just blinded by love? wake up please! nothing good would come out of this with him. don't come crying to me if ever anything happened." snowy recalled her friends' words. she really hated herself for being together with him again and put herself through all these shits. she couldn't understand why she accepted him again. if there's ever a chance to turn back time, she would definitely choose to be with someone else or stayed single till someone better crossed her path.
moral of the story.. "never turn back and eat the grass behind you"