suddenly i got worried about birthday. would it be a happy birthday truly? or would i follow twin? sat i got a strong feeling it aint gonna be a good one. sun i'm not sure. haha.

let me just vent a bit of my emotions on what happened. will your good friend ever forgets your birthday celebration / gathering which you have just told him/her one day before? for me, since i know i'm forgetful, i always make a note in my handphone so i dont forget them. if you're not forgetful, it just speaks how much that friend is to you, isn't it? and it pissed me off even more when the same person previously already confirmed attendance and assured you of him/her going.

another thing is i dont like that word "stupid" and "idiot". if you're jokingly, fine. not in an offending me kind of way, i would be pissed. cause firstly i'm not stupid, neither am i an idiot. one more thing is i dont like vulgarities to be said in my face casually. if it's out of anger, i can understand. cause i do it too.

hmm.. my 3 wishes for each year, i used up 2 already. haha. but if taking into account last year wishes that i have yet to wish, i still have 3 wishes for this 20th birthday. haha. so i'm gonna take the latter. i still have 3 wishes! i'm greedy. haha. well, my wishes are very simple and kind. i just want certain people to be happy always. firstly, my twin. secondly, aaron. why him you may ask? out of guilt from initiating a breakup? perhaps. haha. but more like, really wishing him well. that's the least i can do right? heex.

then, your next question would be how about martin? well, i dont have to wish happiness for him. cause him being with me is already happiness to begin with. and for this i dont wish, cause it's within my ability to do so. i just have to work hard to make things work and be happy always as a couple. isn't that true? keke. wishes are meant to be things that are out of your abilities and letting God or the angels helping you fulfil them in a way or another.

off to bed. oyasumi nasai.