today had a little tiff again. he said he would end earlier. i took them seriously, cause i miss him so much. but, he called and said he would end late. i got angry and upset. it's the same old things i guess. to me, it's like a promise. if you cant do it, dont bother saying it in the first place. i took a train towards home. if he doesn't reply my sms, i would go straight home. but i dont understand. why am i always so soft-hearted and sms him first, even when i'm not in the wrong. is it cause i cherish it alot? i guess so.

in the train, i hit my knuckles against that pole. people stared at me. i didn't bother. i just need some where to let go. reached town in half hour. no sms. no call. i waited as though i'm an idiot. got impatient and started to hit the wall i was leaning against. hit it repeatedly, till my hand went numb. after half hour of waiting, a sms came. he's still waiting for train. i got even more emotional. went to raffles city and walked around. saw the places where we went before and the times we had were so sweet and nice. got even more upset. went to the toilet and cry. came out about ten minutes later. dont wanna let people outside quene too long.

went back to the same spot and wait for him. soon, he came. my face says it all i guess. i'm angry and upset. his face was sickly. relented my anger. at the end of the day, i just realised, it's pms time. so, that explains all the emotional rides i had for these past few days. got so emotional even more after reading datoufen blog. it's nice. some of the words the male and female lead said were exactly the same thing that we had said before, in some-what similiar situation.