hmm, i took a nap earlier on till around 8pm. so that explains why i'm still here to blog. i should be studying for my upcoming exams, but well, have the motivation but no strength to carry out. haha. okok. i shall TRY to start tomorrow. >.< a side note to this, would be that my darling is sick. T_T dont know is a blessing or what. so he can rest more too. kinda 'forced'. haha. but hey, it's a public holiday as from 0000h. haha. everyone can take a break and have a kitkat. heex. okay okay, jokes aside and my lameness. well, i went back to hiclub on monday to see how's the new instructors were like. but to my horror, most of them have a major attitude problem.

maybe it's just me, but i simply cant stand some of their attitudes. if you want someone to teach you how to sign a song, can you say the word "please" or at least ask properly. i tell you they dont. they simply say this "teach me leh!" hell no is my answer, silently spoken in my heart. but well, i simply say that "that is what makes me your seniors' senior." and another horrifying issue is that during recruitment drive, 2 guys had the following conversation in front of the hiclub booth.

A: hey, is this how the retarded people sign?
B: ya. i also know sign language.
*then B went around pointing middle finger in that area*

so when i heard news of it on monday of course i'm pissed. i mean it's not only insulting the hearing impaireds, but insulting everyone who's in the club or had been in the club before. can you imagine youngsters nowadays are really getting from bad to worse. i guess this explains the major attitude problem i perceived from this new batch of instructors. anyway, i had this "scolding" or rather educating the freshies and interpreted for tim. he sign, i talk. seriously. it just shows how shallow people are and how immature they can be. those 2 guys better not be in the club. and i tell you in class 1B, i totally cant stand these 2 guys either. i corrected them for their fingerspelling. like you should say the word instead of the letters when you're fingerspelling. you know what that student said? let me tell you. he said, "that one level too high for me to learn lah." and he went back to fingerspell and saying the letters out. zzz. i simply walked out of that class and went other classes.

for this new batch, really is no big no small. but i came to another conclusion. this new batch of students are gonna hate me. haha. cause their very first day of lesson i sort of scolded them. just like back then during that instructor course when i was very fierce and strict to wansin they all. they all hated me back then and maybe some still do hate me now. haha. but ultimately, they have all learn from and improved.

okay. enough of hiclub. next, would be more of a personal opinion. i blog hopped today and most of those i went to were very heartbroken and upset. it's like being they start to feel that "so near yet so far" kind of thing. it's really a bad omen at times. i'm not saying all the time. but it's how you handle it matters the most. it takes two hands to clap in a relationship/friendship. if one is constantly giving in, the other just takes whatever the person has to offer. then ultimately, this relationship/friendship would fail. everyone has their downs and ups. and behind the downs and ups, there's always reasons. you may think that you have understand the person. but do you really understand? if you have understand, where does the sadness come from? try talking things out. i feel that talking things out is the best. if you're just putting it aside and changed topic, it's just running away. yes, it avoided foreseen arguements and quarrels. but it does not solve the issues.

first few weeks to months would be honeymoon, and after which would only be maintaining the relationship. during honeymoon, the tolerance level and everything is very high and everyone is sweet and loving, happy with each other. but if after that it's just maintaining the relationship, it's hard to just maintain it well without sweet talks or surprises as and when. some guys i know they just simply take things for granted and dont care anymore. this is when the girlfriends feel insecure and becomes more "sticky". and this is when the guys find them irritating, unreasonable, demanding, ridiculous etc etc.

it wouldn't hurt to just sms each other in the morning/bedtime to say sweet stuffs. it wouldn't hurt to text your loved ones that "hey, it's raining. be careful alright?" it all takes less than a minute. is it that hard to spare a minute a day to care for one another? i simply dont understand how some people thinks. sigh. that's all. i think i had gribberish alot today and that's enough. haha. time to sleep. it's gonna be 3am soon! oyasumi~