i done it again? it's just a sms or word from you that i long to hear or see. but there's none. even if i know you remember, i would still want to hear or see it. you dont like liang cha but you took a sip. it's a sweet one. neither me nor my sister likes bitter stuff. so i didn't expect you to tell me it's bitter. it just makes me think, great, i wasted my time on unwanted stuffs again. i teared in the train. cause i dont feel appreciated at all. after that all was well. then at your house. you asked me help you massage, of course i would do it cause you are working even on weekends. me, having my back aching due to the time of the month, asked for a massage. perhaps i was too soft or what, you couldn't hear me. and you wanted to go to bed. it's only 7pm at that time. it makes me feel so unwanted there. then, we watched animax. then, i went home. there wasn't any words from you wishing me. is this asking too much? i dont need a gift or surprise, only words of affirmation. maybe to you i'm just being unreasonable and demanding again. what's the point of me blogging all these now? you no longer read my blog, do you? finding it a hassle. and always to only see me venting all my silly and childish emotional words about you here. i think it's just me. whatever i do or say, it's always wrong in others' eyes.