just got back from a long day in school. i have blisters on my toes now. sigh. i hope they will recover soon.

miscommunication and assumptions really play a major role in quarrels and arguements. when you assume something, you will unknowingly accused people of something that they are not. uncalled circumstances and situations would just happen spontaneously. when you expect people to be understanding, you do the same too. try to understand that it may seems to be just a rehearsal, but in fact it can be as tiring as working. when one's tired, the senses are impaired. so from what i had written so far, you guys should have guess it too.

he said that if he never go and find me in school, i would probably end up telling him i'm not meeting him again. but the truth is i told everyone i am gonna leave at 6pm. everyone can be my witness. he assumed and i was accused. i hate being accused. cause it makes it seems that whatever i had planned to do, doesn't matter anymore. it doesn't mean anything anymore.

after that he angrily walked off again. i went to hold his arm and trying to coax him again as usual. he said he's in bad mood, wants me to go home. then, he said that i'm irritating him. i got pissed rather than being upset. i did nothing to irritate him. so i just walked off. then he came back and find me. then we talked a while. i wasn't speechless. i just didn't want to make things worse. for whatever i had to say are wrong and wont get in.

then he said he dont wanna quarrel there. so i walked off. then he said that now i give up so easily, no longer going to coax him sort of things. cause previously i'm always the one doing it and no matter how much i tried, how long i tried, he's still like that. so what's the point in it anymore when it doesn't work. furthermore, aren't such things usually done by guys more? he's ever so fierce. and i think guys always think that they are right even if it's wrong in theory.

this is what we call perceptions. everyone got their own perceptions of right and wrong. and how can do handle these differences? we communicate. if the communication is always one-sided, it's very tiring for that person, and hence leads to a miscommunication. like what usually happens between me and him. sigh. so advices to people out there, dont walk out on one another. talk it out. talking doesn't work dont force anything else to work. it would just backfire and destroy any possible hopes and dreams. that's all for this entry. good bye.