instructors' course ended. the future is scary for me already. this club is really.. i seriously don't know what did i do wrong during the musical time that they had to outcast me so badly to shuffle the committee until so shitty and everyone's in the wrong places. so now the club suffers. lack of exposure, lack of performances, lack of manpower, lack of support.. wtf are we going to do next? this sem only left me and farah. the rest got attachments or not not willing to be involved anymore. this is such a bad situation. i thought what they said about me is true, so i went to ask the people who were around. they said actually i never expect them to put you in editorial. i thought they would put you higher up. so i told them what the seniors said. they gave the same reactions. i'd never forget their reactions. because it all just proved to me that i was never in the wrong. it was just their personal grudge and biasness. so what if he's a HI and so what if he's the VP's friend back then? he gets all the power and attitude? wtf seriously.. my anger was already long gone, but now it's back. cause simply i was being either backstabbed or wrongly accused or misunderstood. okay, let me be shameless for a moment. if i am not the organiser for this event, no instructors would turn up for this event. they see face then come and help me one okay. that's why i don't understand how come some idiotic people can like that accused me back then. zZzZz..