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when you feel that someone understands you well, but in the end, that person dont understand you that well at all. if a person finds you nosy, irritating and unreasonable, but yet still wanna be with you, what is the rationale behind it? i simply dont understand. i'm facing a breakdown. i asked some of my ex-es, am i that bad as a girlfriend? they all replied no, but just a little stubborn at times. so what have i done to deserve all this now? maybe i'm simply not good. all the tender loving care i have been giving, no appreciations? i already considered myself as an understanding girlfriend as compared to other girls. my feelings can be summarised by the MV above.

i guess when he reads this, he will be thinking once again, wtf am i doing by telling everyone things about us? he will be thinking that i'm so fking irritating. and he will be thinking that i'm just simply being unreasonable. have he not treated me well? answer is no. he's been treating me well. just sometimes. and these sometimes are increasing. to a point where, i've lost myself in it. does he still loves me? answer is yes. i feel that he still loves me. just that he's too busy with his work lately or being too tired to show it. is it worth it? answer is yes. even if i can only have his 100% attention for a second, i would be happy. for that second, he only sees me and there's only us. am i being stupid? answer is yes. love makes one stupid.