"在一起的我们，时常都会说出一些不好听的话。
可能我们都认为，夫妻好如家人。
说错了什么，做错了什么事，对方都会原谅你。
when we're together, we tend to say things crudely. maybe because we felt that husband and wife are like family. no matter what you say, or what you did wrongly, the other party would forgive you.
我对你说过了很多话。
也对你许下了很多承诺。
每一次做错了，也只能告诉你我下次不会了。
每一次说错了，我也满口的理由，满脑子的借口。
我从来都不知道，我说的每一句话所对你所造成的影响。
i said alot of things to you. and perhaps many promises. everytime i did something wrong, i would only tell you there's no next time. everytime i said something wrong, i'm always full of excuses. i never knew whatever i said would have an impact on you.
直道你对我说那些话时，我才知道。
知道原来当妳心爱的人对你说一些伤痛的感觉时。
你仿佛会感到万分的伤痛。
until the day you said those words to me, only then did i know. when your loved one tells you how hurtful they were, you would feel the pain too.
你说：
“我们好像不像从前了。
从前，你都会牵着我的手。我们什么时候开始各走各的了？”
每当我回想起这句话时，我都好像感受到妳的悲伤。"
you said, "we'll never seemed to be like before. last time, you always hold my hand. since when did we start to walk by ourselves?" everytime when i recall you saying this, i felt like i know your sorrowness.
after reading Anntonii's blog, i cried. reason? cause i find some resemblance in his entries. how things are pretty much alike in other people too. i start to think alot of "nonsenses" again. been pretty emo lately and pms-ing. so it's like a compound emo-ness at the moment.
had weird dreams about me dying for love, seeing affairs, quarreling and separating from each other. the dream about me dying for love is something like, i would rather die now knowing that you loved me then to die later knowing that you never loved me. weird huh? i told him about all those dreams and he just said i think too much.
i really dont know. sometimes, it's like most of the weekends i felt loved and weekdays just sucks at times. sometimes, so near and yet so far. sometimes i just think that love is no more than a vicious cycle.
when it's lost, you're afraid of being in it again."